Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Rant Follow Up

A follow up to yesterday's Rant post seems in order.

After I wrote that the thought that always comes to me regarding this whole issue of over consumption came to me once again: "So, why am I not thin yet!?" If you know me, you know I'm not super thin. If you don't know me I'll just say that I'm carrying an extra 30 or so, in my opinion. Being skinny is not the point. Being perfect is not the point. Living a life that most closely resembles the the life I know I want to live, am meant to live, that is the point. I think we all struggle with that to some degree. I certainly don't wish to sound like a Pharisee.

Part of the journey is learning to live a more integrated life. That is to say a life that not only talks the talk but walks the walk; practices what it preaches. All that good stuff. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm working on it. Two of my favorite lines from the movie Tombstone is where Johnny Ringo says "Eventus stultorum magister. " (Events are the teachers of fools) and another one where Doc Holiday says "It appears my hypocrisy knows no bounds." Of course I loved all kinds of quotes from that movie, but I won't digress here too far.

Food is not the only excess I struggle with, I also struggle with trying to spend less, use lest gas, buy fair trade, fairly treated meat, recycle, compost, waste not, gossip less...etc... That is another painful part of growing up - learning how integrated I'm not and yet how intertwined with the whole mess I am. The whole human race is effed up, if you will pardon my french abbreviation, but we are indeed interconnected in some glorious way. We are all imperfect. Somehow God/the Universe/whatever one calls It.... I AM is still the I AM, and the ordinary is truly holy, and that gives me hope.