Is The Room Tilting, Or Is It Just Me?
If it is pride that has kept me functioning in such a very narrow range of feeling, perhaps for the sake of a spiritual persona, or whatever else...
Then could it be that humility, in this case, requires that I sacrifice personal equilibrium for emotional authenticity?
Then could it be that humility, in this case, requires that I sacrifice personal equilibrium for emotional authenticity?
posted by Captainwow on
2/08/2005
10 Comments:
well... I am honestly crazy.
Take Care
Michael
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Michael, at 2/08/2005 10:45 PM
Will you be expounding on this, dear Captainwow? It sounds like it could lead to some interesting discussion.
annie, whose personal equilibrium has indeed been shaken up, but who still thinks she falls short of emotional authencity and feels she may also be leaning a little too heavily into maintaining that spiritual persona...if I get your drift!
Tell me more...
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annie, at 2/08/2005 11:14 PM
I don't know that I can expound on this much more just yet, so maybe I shouldn't have posted it... It's just that I find myself in a place with very little emotional defense/self protection... And that's very humbling.
It's still just a question. Seems important, and I wonder what other people think or have experienced in this area.
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Captainwow, at 2/09/2005 8:01 AM
And, Yes, Annie, you are getting my drift.
If not spiritual persona - ANY persona. Not wanting to appear weak, we have images to uphold, you know. God forbid anyone should see me needy and unable to keep myself tightly wrapped.
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Captainwow, at 2/09/2005 8:22 AM
Humility, to me, is the same thing as sanity. It allows you to see the importance of others...but it is not self-effacing. In humility, one realistically evaluates their strengths and weaknesses, priorities and abilities. One does not shy away or deny the truth, but, being committed to the truth, one lives up to the responsibilities it entails.
That is, for me, a kind of a formal definition of humility.
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Steve, at 2/09/2005 11:06 AM
I'm involved with a ministry, and it is like no other. Too involved to explain here. Last April I went on what is called HeartQuest. This is for the womenfolk only (Mens is called Quest). 5 days. Not your "ladies retreat." Close encoutners of the God kind! Anyway, it set me on a course. I've come to learn that: 1)we can't get through this thing called the Christian life alone, on our own (we are not even called to do so), 2)Transparency is key (authenticity, if you will!)
When we face our "junk," our depravity and we learn to lay it out there, we experience freedom. We also see that we are not as alone in our sin as we thought. I learned, in the presence of 15 other women, that we have the same sin, wounds, insecurities - the list goes on.
And yes, pride, doth get in our way. Most of it boils down to pride, IMO. We all have learned to wear the mask very well. We fool others, and we can live that way so long, that it becomes our identity. In my life, I have discovered that it is good for me to be authentic, real, transparent. There is freedom in that.
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Anonymous, at 2/10/2005 11:52 AM
Well, I don't know what happened, but the above comment was posted by me, Gayla. It didn't give me the option to post under my username. Dunno??
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Anonymous, at 2/10/2005 11:55 AM
if the room is tilting and you feel off-balance, then i would venture to say that it is pride.
we all know that pride goeth before a fall.
hth.
p
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~pen~, at 2/10/2005 2:44 PM
Thanks Steve... Good to "see" you! :o)
Welcome, Gayla and thanks for your insights... sounds like you have experience in this area.
Martha, you're crackin me up.
Vertigo sucks, you know.
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Captainwow, at 2/10/2005 5:18 PM
This may be a lame metaphor, but your post made me think of a tugboat sinking under a load that's too heavy, and the imbalance that occurs when unnecessary cargo is thrown overboard.
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Pat, at 2/11/2005 4:02 PM
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